So....I've been wondering a lot about "WHY" lately. Like why does crap happen the way it happens. Why does stuff happen to ME, and why does it happen to everyone else...and does any of it matter to anything else? Does what I do affect YOU? Or does it just happen, and that's that....everything's just random and cooincedental. This book Im reading has a theme to it about Quantom Theory. Like, everything that happens to ANYONE, affects EVERYONE somehow. An example given would be like how a flock of birds that get startled and flap their wings in flight somewhere in africa could be the cause of a hurricane in chicago. So...my mind is racing about how like, what's going to happen by me typing this journal...because according to the theory, just by making this decision, things will happen a certain way, and if i didn't type this journal, a different set of things would happen. And Ive been struggling with this whole concept, because I think it might mean that everyone lives in their own reality. Because decisions are made by eveyrone living, every second of every day. And new realities would be created by all these inifinte number of decisions and actiosn that were made. And I think what's making me crazy, is that if lives their OWN reality, then NONE of you are exepriencing what Im experiencing OF you....Like, in someone else's reality, there's no internet. In another reality, there's not even a United States. Or maybe we all have 3 arms because there's been a nuclear war already. In somebody's reality, I'm not an only child and I get along with my parents. Or I might be a rock star...or straight. Ugh...I can't stop thinking about it. Its effed up. And, no...I'm not stoned...I don't do drugs

This might seem like I'm depressed or something, but I'm not. I've just been trying to figure life out. And what I keep coming back to is one question. What is the point of life, when every life ends eventually. We spend our lives trying to survive, and most people try to stay alive as long as possible and make medicines and surgeries and machines that keep people living. But they die anyway. We keep building and inventing bigger and better and prettier things, but for who? We use the stuff for a while...then we die. So, really what IS the point? To just have the best stuff while you're alive? Are we alive JUST so we can make babies so that THEY can be alive? It just seems pointless when you think about it. Now, Im not saying that you can't make your life a happy and good one. I've got stuff I wanna do while I'm still living, like you all do. But what if I get them all done? I'm still gonna die and then what will it have mattered? So, the question isn't how can you make life worth while, because thats obvious...that while you're here, you should do that and be happy for 90 years or whatever. But really...what is the point of life?

Man, that title sounded kinky. o.O But no, I am conducting a poll and it's very important to me to get all of your opionions, so please, if you have time, I'd love everyone's answer AND if you do answer, if you can tell me the reason why you answered the way you did, that would be so damn helpful.

Here is the Poll, please give me your answer and reasons for your answer:

a) Yes

b) No



Thanks!

Ok, I have to come out of the closet with this. I watched the movie Roll Bounce, starring Bow Wow, who used to be 'Lil Bow Wow, but he growed up...and I loved it. It's the most ridiculous movie ever. Dumb cheesy plot, crap acting, and everything else you can hate about a movie. But I'll watch it everytime it comes on HBO. I sat there intrigued, looking at all the 70's hair, including wiicked fro's and listening to the music, and seeing all the snappy clothes.....all the while wondering how the *roller skating* competition will turn out. Man....im so embarrassed.

Anyone else have any guilty pleasures they wouldnt let their friends know about? I won't tell...honest.

I've been thinking about how *we* got here. No, I'm not stoned, seriously. But I mean I'm sure everyone's thought about it at some point, right? I'm not really religious, and I'm not saying it's impossible for us to have been *created* because *we* did have to start SOMEWHERE. If *we* really were started by an Adam and Eve, then how did everything become so different? Like all the different skin colors and eye shapes and other mutations? And what if there was a *we* before the current *we*? Or other *we's* in the universe somewhere? Would that freak everyone out? I sort of assume there is, or has been, other *we's* that either lived on earth before us, or lived somewhere else. And I think they were advanced in some way. Maybe in technology, maybe in thinking, maybe in spirituality or all of it, who knows. I'm curious what anyone thinks about it all. This isnt supposed to be an argument, anyone's opinion, religious, scientific, fantasic, or whatever, will be interesting to me. Thanks.
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~Ian~