So....I've been wondering a lot about "WHY" lately. Like why does crap happen the way it happens. Why does stuff happen to ME, and why does it happen to everyone else...and does any of it matter to anything else? Does what I do affect YOU? Or does it just happen, and that's that....everything's just random and cooincedental. This book Im reading has a theme to it about Quantom Theory. Like, everything that happens to ANYONE, affects EVERYONE somehow. An example given would be like how a flock of birds that get startled and flap their wings in flight somewhere in africa could be the cause of a hurricane in chicago. So...my mind is racing about how like, what's going to happen by me typing this journal...because according to the theory, just by making this decision, things will happen a certain way, and if i didn't type this journal, a different set of things would happen. And Ive been struggling with this whole concept, because I think it might mean that everyone lives in their own reality. Because decisions are made by eveyrone living, every second of every day. And new realities would be created by all these inifinte number of decisions and actiosn that were made. And I think what's making me crazy, is that if lives their OWN reality, then NONE of you are exepriencing what Im experiencing OF you....Like, in someone else's reality, there's no internet. In another reality, there's not even a United States. Or maybe we all have 3 arms because there's been a nuclear war already. In somebody's reality, I'm not an only child and I get along with my parents. Or I might be a rock star...or straight. Ugh...I can't stop thinking about it. Its effed up. And, no...I'm not stoned...I don't do drugs