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Slipping Into Crazy =\

Thu Oct 12, 2006, 5:26 PM
So....I've been wondering a lot about "WHY" lately. Like why does crap happen the way it happens. Why does stuff happen to ME, and why does it happen to everyone else...and does any of it matter to anything else? Does what I do affect YOU? Or does it just happen, and that's that....everything's just random and cooincedental. This book Im reading has a theme to it about Quantom Theory. Like, everything that happens to ANYONE, affects EVERYONE somehow. An example given would be like how a flock of birds that get startled and flap their wings in flight somewhere in africa could be the cause of a hurricane in chicago. So...my mind is racing about how like, what's going to happen by me typing this journal...because according to the theory, just by making this decision, things will happen a certain way, and if i didn't type this journal, a different set of things would happen. And Ive been struggling with this whole concept, because I think it might mean that everyone lives in their own reality. Because decisions are made by eveyrone living, every second of every day. And new realities would be created by all these inifinte number of decisions and actiosn that were made. And I think what's making me crazy, is that if lives their OWN reality, then NONE of you are exepriencing what Im experiencing OF you....Like, in someone else's reality, there's no internet. In another reality, there's not even a United States. Or maybe we all have 3 arms because there's been a nuclear war already. In somebody's reality, I'm not an only child and I get along with my parents. Or I might be a rock star...or straight. Ugh...I can't stop thinking about it. Its effed up. And, no...I'm not stoned...I don't do drugs :p

  • Mood: Nervous
  • Listening to: dogs barking
  • Reading: From the Corner of His Eye
  • Watching: my back
  • Playing: ....im not gonna say it
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: D.C.
  • Interests: clouds and fog
  • Favourite movie: Anchorman....shh. no really, its good. Ok...its Roll Bounce =\
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock and alternative mostly
  • Favourite artist: Jeff Thomas
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King
  • Favourite photographer: Ben Webb
  • Skin of choice: Reptilian?
  • Favourite game: Jello-tag
  • Personal Quote: If at first you don't succeed, try, try a gun.

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Comments


:iconcherryblooms96:
Life is short and u didn't get 2 fulfill every bit of time u had the way u wanted or u did but 4 only a little while and u surely deserve way more.Memories ,and of course ur soul, r the only thing left of u after death or maybe every1 just ends of forgetting all their memories or they just don't try hard enough 2 remember wht they thought they actually 4got.U may have changed some1s life with only a hug or even a smile when they needed support.If u can read then my job of writin this message on account of not knowing u will pay of and I hope it will.I wish i had known u longer enough 2 have put a smile on ur face...but sadly i couldn't and i know i will regret it.
RIP....u will be missed by millions :pray:
:iconkattastic99:
Merry christmas Ian, I wish you could be here.

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Sokka: Hey, Zuko?
Zuko: Yeah?
Sokka: It hurts to sit.
Zuko: Yeah? You shoulda thought of that last night.
Sokka: YOU'RE the one who decided to practise firebending topless!
Zuko: You can top tonight.
Sokka: You're forgiven.
Aang: SQUEE!
:iconcantrunanymore:
Occasionally, I like to come back to your page and read through it. It's like when I do this, you're back reading poetry in my head. Of course, I never spoke to you and don't know what your voice sounds like, but it's nice that just for a moment you're here.
I know I've been slack and haven't visited in a while.
You will always be immortalised through the hearts and minds of everyone you have ever touched, heaven child.

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It is pitch black. You are likely to be eaten by a grue.
:iconslytherinfangirl:
You're work makes me smile. You seemed like a wonderful person. I would've loved to have met you. Your work makes me smile so very much. Missing in the Back of the Class made me think a whole lot. I :heart: you and your work.

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Ninety-seven percent of bad things are bad, the other three percent are the bad things I do :paranoid:
:iconshadowedvisage:
Ian look! I finally made it back to deviantart! I know I really didn't have much of a reason to leave, I don't know. When you died it was like all my reasons for writing were gone. But here I am, starting over with a new username and all. You had been one who inspired me so much, helped me so much. I knew we had only known each other other than the "pass in the hallway wave" for only a few months, but I wish it could have for a much longer time frame. I still send you emails you know. I hope you are checking them from where you are, and I wish I would just find myself with an e-hug that fell through the cracks one of these days. I miss you.
:iconkattastic99:
I wanted you to know that when I went to bed last night, I did something I haven't done in years. I prayed. I prayed that wherever you are, you know how many people you inspired, how many people, oldcomers and newcomers alike, leave comments here or send you notes, or pay their respects in any way. I prayed that you're happy wherever you are, and that you changed my life for the better, as you must have done for so many others. I prayed that this page stay up as long as possible, so people can continue to fall for you, and cry for you. When I was done, I cried. I just felt so horrible. And from what little I know of you, I think you were, and are, a wonderful person.

May you rest in peace.

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Sokka: Hey, Zuko?
Zuko: Yeah?
Sokka: It hurts to sit.
Zuko: Yeah? You shoulda thought of that last night.
Sokka: YOU'RE the one who decided to practise firebending topless!
Zuko: You can top tonight.
Sokka: You're forgiven.
Aang: SQUEE!
:iconkattastic99:
If Jeff has an account here or anywhere else, I would like to know it, in case there's anything I can find out about Ian. I really want to know him, even if it's too late.

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Sokka: Hey, Zuko?
Zuko: Yeah?
Sokka: It hurts to sit.
Zuko: Yeah? You shoulda thought of that last night.
Sokka: YOU'RE the one who decided to practise firebending topless!
Zuko: You can top tonight.
Sokka: You're forgiven.
Aang: SQUEE!
:iconkattastic99:
When I first read your story "Missing in the Back of Class, I didn't know, but I found out soon enough. I still feel a pang of sorrow when I think about you, and I even feel a little bit of guilt, guilt at the fact that I almost put up a stupid reply, guilt that I almost soiled your memory. I hate the fact that someone could be loved by so many, be so great at what you do, and can be so cruelly taken from this world. If you somehow get this message, then I want you to know that I'm sorry. Sorry for everything that happened to you, and sorry that you never got the chance to live long enough to see your own grandkids read your works and smile.

Rest in Peace.

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Sokka: Hey, Zuko?
Zuko: Yeah?
Sokka: It hurts to sit.
Zuko: Yeah? You shoulda thought of that last night.
Sokka: YOU'RE the one who decided to practise firebending topless!
Zuko: You can top tonight.
Sokka: You're forgiven.
Aang: SQUEE!

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